It's amazing how after years of wanting little things and never getting them and eventually giving up, that I realize I'm now getting those things. And those little things all add up to a big, remarkable, wonderful happiness.
Every day before and after work the simple act of a hug and kiss from or to Dave just makes the day better. And the texts during the day to see how each other is doing reminds us how much we care about each other. The zzzziinnnggg that my phone makes when a text message from him comes in makes me smile and my heart warm every time I hear it.
I am not a materialistic person by any means, but on the flip side, I, like Dave, like to spoil our loved ones. Even if it's just by buying each others' favorite candy while we're at the gas station, we just let each other know that they are never far from our thoughts. I don't need or want flowers, jewelry or expensive gifts. It's like Kenny Rogers sang...
Buy me a rose
Call me from work
Open the door for me for me, what would it hurt?
Show me you love me by the look in your eyes
These are the little things
That mean the most in my life
... And I have the little things that mean the most in my life.
XOXOXO
Showing posts with label Smiles. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Smiles. Show all posts
Thursday, July 28, 2011
Tuesday, July 19, 2011
Day 170, Post 1
I'll start with a little bit about optimism and keeping a positive attitude. This weekend was hindered by a dark cloud that I won't really get into, however I'm amazed by the positive attitude that some can keep, despite the rolling thunderstorms that seem to pop up on a random, unpredictable schedule. While some people in my life have an amazing (and to me un-admirable) ability to pick out all that doesn't work in their lives, those that pick out the good when the thunderstorms roll in have my support through anything. I certainly don't want or intend to be a fair weather friend, however those who can keep their chins up and keep smiling give me so much more hope about my own abilities to work through the storms in my life. So keep it, lovely. Keep smiling. Keep laughing. I love you and I'll be there for you through it all.
Moving on...
Being in love, and I mean REALLY in love, has made me feel almost bad for laughing... er, scoffing... at lines in movies when the actors said how love felt. Take Sleepless in Seattle for example. Tom Hanks' character says that when he and his deceased wife would touch it would feel like *magic*. I remember rolling my eyes at this line numerous times. "Yea, right." I would think. Love can't possibly feel like that. But folks, it does. And I'm in awe to actually be able to experience it for myself. I never imagined being with someone who would give me butterflies anytime I thought of him, and even more so whenever I see him. Someone who makes my arm tingle when he touches it, and makes me feel beautiful.. all the time...
I hope you all can feel this type of love someday if you don't already have it. To me, being able to give you this would be the best gift possible. Unfortunately I don't fly around in a diaper with wings on my back and a bow and arrow in my hand. But if I see cupid and know you're looking I'll send him your way.
Moving on...
Being in love, and I mean REALLY in love, has made me feel almost bad for laughing... er, scoffing... at lines in movies when the actors said how love felt. Take Sleepless in Seattle for example. Tom Hanks' character says that when he and his deceased wife would touch it would feel like *magic*. I remember rolling my eyes at this line numerous times. "Yea, right." I would think. Love can't possibly feel like that. But folks, it does. And I'm in awe to actually be able to experience it for myself. I never imagined being with someone who would give me butterflies anytime I thought of him, and even more so whenever I see him. Someone who makes my arm tingle when he touches it, and makes me feel beautiful.. all the time...
I hope you all can feel this type of love someday if you don't already have it. To me, being able to give you this would be the best gift possible. Unfortunately I don't fly around in a diaper with wings on my back and a bow and arrow in my hand. But if I see cupid and know you're looking I'll send him your way.
Wednesday, May 18, 2011
DAY 108, Post 1
Although mentally exhausting, these past two days at work have been my favorite so far. I've barely had a dull moment, and in some ways I feel like I'm back working in NYC again. But unlike in NYC, even when the workload is hectic, there are still plenty of smiling faces and friendly attitudes.
I find it funny that the woman at the temp agency who hired me asked me if I thought I could handle working with nine men. Honestly, I don't think I could handle working with nine women! These guys are great to work with and keep me laughing. And unlike CMG, I'm in my first week and I haven't dreaded coming to work once. Do I want to be at home curled up with Dave? YEA! But I don't dread being at work. And that feels GREAT!
I find it funny that the woman at the temp agency who hired me asked me if I thought I could handle working with nine men. Honestly, I don't think I could handle working with nine women! These guys are great to work with and keep me laughing. And unlike CMG, I'm in my first week and I haven't dreaded coming to work once. Do I want to be at home curled up with Dave? YEA! But I don't dread being at work. And that feels GREAT!
Thursday, May 12, 2011
DAY 102, Post 2
I can feel my belly growing... The delicacies prepared by Dave in the kitchen and on the grill are already impacting my weight. I can feel it. And it's funny... I know it's happening because a dress I bought two weeks ago (and am wearing for the first time today) doesn't fit as well around the boobs as it did before. No, I'm not pregnant. BUT, I did notice that when I lost weight I lost it in my boobs. Hmmm...
Today for lunch Dave made barbeque pork chop sandwiches and hot italian sausages on the grill. I'm afraid I won't make it through the afternoon at work due to falling asleep due to a full-belly enduced euphoria. The yummy deliciousness is sitting in my stomach, and it's a very good thing there's not a seam running down the front of my dress or I'd be afraid it would split.
Tonight after work Dave and I will be going to play pool with my co-workers. The guys, minus the manager and assistant manager, have a regular Thursday night weekly outing set up and apparently I'm worthy enough to be invited, haha. It probably helps that I was able to connect with JM, one of my co-workers, almost immediately by discussing WoW with him.
Last night Dave and I went down to Beavercreek to go to the Fairfield Mall as well as DSW and Old Navy. Dave introduced me to Bourbon Chicken (was that the name?) at Cajun Ming, and then I introduced him to Williams Sonoma. I think the latter overwhelmed him a bit. I'm not surprised, however, considering the store is packed full of high-quality, over-priced cooking tools. If I could buy him one of everything, I would.
I was tickled (Pink, haha) to find that Gap had stock of my favorite perfume, "So Pink", still on their shelves. Unfortunately it's been discontinued, so I'll soon have to find a new fragrance to wear. Not only do I love it, but Dave as well to the point that he asked me to spray it up under the dashboard in the car on the way home. Within seconds the aroma of "So Pink" filled the car. It was lovely, I won't deny, but even more beautiful was the huge smile it put on his face. Ahhh, how I LOVE seeing his smiles.
I had trouble falling asleep last night, but for a good reason, rather than bad. I honestly laid there thinking, "Did I die? Am I in heaven?" I was going to ask Dave to pinch me, however I decided instead to lie there enjoying being wrapped up in his arms and listening to his soft snoring. Oh how love is such a beautiful thing!
Today for lunch Dave made barbeque pork chop sandwiches and hot italian sausages on the grill. I'm afraid I won't make it through the afternoon at work due to falling asleep due to a full-belly enduced euphoria. The yummy deliciousness is sitting in my stomach, and it's a very good thing there's not a seam running down the front of my dress or I'd be afraid it would split.
Tonight after work Dave and I will be going to play pool with my co-workers. The guys, minus the manager and assistant manager, have a regular Thursday night weekly outing set up and apparently I'm worthy enough to be invited, haha. It probably helps that I was able to connect with JM, one of my co-workers, almost immediately by discussing WoW with him.
Last night Dave and I went down to Beavercreek to go to the Fairfield Mall as well as DSW and Old Navy. Dave introduced me to Bourbon Chicken (was that the name?) at Cajun Ming, and then I introduced him to Williams Sonoma. I think the latter overwhelmed him a bit. I'm not surprised, however, considering the store is packed full of high-quality, over-priced cooking tools. If I could buy him one of everything, I would.
I was tickled (Pink, haha) to find that Gap had stock of my favorite perfume, "So Pink", still on their shelves. Unfortunately it's been discontinued, so I'll soon have to find a new fragrance to wear. Not only do I love it, but Dave as well to the point that he asked me to spray it up under the dashboard in the car on the way home. Within seconds the aroma of "So Pink" filled the car. It was lovely, I won't deny, but even more beautiful was the huge smile it put on his face. Ahhh, how I LOVE seeing his smiles.
I had trouble falling asleep last night, but for a good reason, rather than bad. I honestly laid there thinking, "Did I die? Am I in heaven?" I was going to ask Dave to pinch me, however I decided instead to lie there enjoying being wrapped up in his arms and listening to his soft snoring. Oh how love is such a beautiful thing!
Thursday, April 28, 2011
DAY 88, Post 1
Alrighty then! It's time I fill you in on all the greatness in my life in the last week!
I gave in. Last Tuesday I decided I just couldn't ignore my feelings. I had told myself, him (Dave aka CL-WoW) and others over and over that there was no way we met to just spend two months together... And I was right... And he knew it too...
I decided to make an Easter basket for him, putting egg related messages on 31 Cellas, his favorite candy treat, and putting them in plastic Easter eggs. I drove out there, drove by his house and his car wasn't there. So I drove to the mall. When I was pulling through the mall parking lot, I saw him pulling out of a restaurant across the street and head back to his house. I stopped my car, psyched myself back up and decided to go for it.
But it wasn't that easy. I sat outside his house in my car for a couple minutes and then did a "Beep Beep." But he didn't come out. So after a few more minutes and writing up a bunch more post-its, I walked to the door and knocked. And he answered. And he SMILED!
The post-it on my pointer finger said "Can I have two minutes?". And he said of course. The next finger said "I won't say anything unless it's ok with you.". He said "Of course its ok if you talk!" And talk we did. And have. And everything we've both felt has now been said... And will continue being said...
There's no shortage of smiles, laughter or "I love you's" in my life now.
To make this past week even better, I started my new job, and today actually quit the old one. My new job is amazing. Great people, great environment, and despite wanting to be home with Dave, the work day flies. And I love that. I love having a job I enjoy and am good at.
And as for Dave, he is looking to get a job here and has been a... Ray of sunshine in my life for the last week. It's been amazing to come home and see him here. The smiles, laughter, kisses, hugs and "I love yous" are everthing I could ask for, especially when they are coming from the man I want to spend forever with.
I was also blessed with a visit with my Mom and Aunt Flushy this past weekend. I now have real furniture in my apartment and was lucky enough to be accompanied by these two wonderful women and Dave when I was re-affirmed on this past (Easter)Sunday.
Oh... I am SOOO blessed!
I gave in. Last Tuesday I decided I just couldn't ignore my feelings. I had told myself, him (Dave aka CL-WoW) and others over and over that there was no way we met to just spend two months together... And I was right... And he knew it too...
I decided to make an Easter basket for him, putting egg related messages on 31 Cellas, his favorite candy treat, and putting them in plastic Easter eggs. I drove out there, drove by his house and his car wasn't there. So I drove to the mall. When I was pulling through the mall parking lot, I saw him pulling out of a restaurant across the street and head back to his house. I stopped my car, psyched myself back up and decided to go for it.
But it wasn't that easy. I sat outside his house in my car for a couple minutes and then did a "Beep Beep." But he didn't come out. So after a few more minutes and writing up a bunch more post-its, I walked to the door and knocked. And he answered. And he SMILED!
The post-it on my pointer finger said "Can I have two minutes?". And he said of course. The next finger said "I won't say anything unless it's ok with you.". He said "Of course its ok if you talk!" And talk we did. And have. And everything we've both felt has now been said... And will continue being said...
There's no shortage of smiles, laughter or "I love you's" in my life now.
To make this past week even better, I started my new job, and today actually quit the old one. My new job is amazing. Great people, great environment, and despite wanting to be home with Dave, the work day flies. And I love that. I love having a job I enjoy and am good at.
And as for Dave, he is looking to get a job here and has been a... Ray of sunshine in my life for the last week. It's been amazing to come home and see him here. The smiles, laughter, kisses, hugs and "I love yous" are everthing I could ask for, especially when they are coming from the man I want to spend forever with.
I was also blessed with a visit with my Mom and Aunt Flushy this past weekend. I now have real furniture in my apartment and was lucky enough to be accompanied by these two wonderful women and Dave when I was re-affirmed on this past (Easter)Sunday.
Oh... I am SOOO blessed!
Thursday, April 21, 2011
DAY 81, Post 2
I can't even express how overjoyed I am right now. A HUGE smile has been permanently placed on my face, and I don't see it leaving... Ever...
Over the last three months I knew there was a reason why I couldn't let go... Why I wouldn't let go... And my feelings were right.
I love being right. I love feeling it with my heart.
XOXO
Over the last three months I knew there was a reason why I couldn't let go... Why I wouldn't let go... And my feelings were right.
I love being right. I love feeling it with my heart.
XOXO
Friday, April 15, 2011
DAY 75, Post 3
The boys and I have watched this commercial about 10 times in the last five minutes. We missed it during the Super Bowl (not surprising, considering our bad Super Bowl experience), but we love it!
DAY 75, Post 2
Wow... I am overjoyed right now! I got the job and I start a week from Monday! Its a 50% pay increase, 40 hours a week, and a total... I don't even know how to describe how I'm feeling!
On a side note... I had a first date last night. It went GREAT and I look forward to seeing him again!
On a side note... I had a first date last night. It went GREAT and I look forward to seeing him again!
Tuesday, April 5, 2011
DAY 65, Post 4
I want to put a HUGE thank you out there to my sweetie-pie Thing 2. He totally made my night by having a dance party in the living room with me. We danced to "Try a Little Tenderness", and let me tell you... I could feel it in my belly when we were through! Now I know how I'm going to get rid of the belly fat that doesn't want to go away, despite the weight loss.
The boys have finally migrated their way upstairs to bed, however I know they will be up for a while as Penny has found something to bark her head off at. And while I know they should go to sleep, I am somewhat comforted by the sounds of their voices. I supposed I should go confiscate their DS's for the night though.
Now that the details of the divorce have been figured out, I sit here thinking... Now what? What do I put my efforts in to now? I was worried I hadn't put enough time into my divorce documents, however after looking at DH's documents, I was FAR more detailed than he was. I must admit, his lack of detail put a slight smile on my face. Considering how I would get criticized for my laziness, his work seemed a bit half-ass to me. And while yes, my work schedule is a bit unconventional, up to now I HAVE had the boys more of the time than he has. So... HA!
But really... What now? Where do I concentrate my efforts? I am thinking job searching would be a good route. And reading a book I picked up at church that Pastor Mike wrote, Money Matters. The topic of bankruptcy came up at both the therapist's office and at court today, and I am mixed on the subject. While yes, it would be nice to have my creditors off my back, I have guilty feelings about writing off my debt. I got myself into this mess. To me, I really should try to get myself out of it. Unfortunately I know the debt will take longer to pay off then the seven years a bankruptcy will stay on my record, especially in my current employment situation. I guess this is something I will REALLY need to think through.
Despite the fact that I myself went to a therapist today, I have been giving a lot of thought to what I would like to do with my life. And I've realized that I love helping, or rather attempting to help people. An ad keeps coming up on Facebook for a degree to become a Christian therapists, and I clicked on it today just to see what it's about. I'm not going to deny that the thought of going back to school and accruing even more debt scares the shit out of me, but I really don't think that design is my calling. I REALLY want to help people. But perhaps I should sit/sleep on this thought for a while... At least a few months if not a year. Thing 2 will be in Kindergarten in the fall, and life may or may not become simpler then.
The boys have finally migrated their way upstairs to bed, however I know they will be up for a while as Penny has found something to bark her head off at. And while I know they should go to sleep, I am somewhat comforted by the sounds of their voices. I supposed I should go confiscate their DS's for the night though.
Now that the details of the divorce have been figured out, I sit here thinking... Now what? What do I put my efforts in to now? I was worried I hadn't put enough time into my divorce documents, however after looking at DH's documents, I was FAR more detailed than he was. I must admit, his lack of detail put a slight smile on my face. Considering how I would get criticized for my laziness, his work seemed a bit half-ass to me. And while yes, my work schedule is a bit unconventional, up to now I HAVE had the boys more of the time than he has. So... HA!
But really... What now? Where do I concentrate my efforts? I am thinking job searching would be a good route. And reading a book I picked up at church that Pastor Mike wrote, Money Matters. The topic of bankruptcy came up at both the therapist's office and at court today, and I am mixed on the subject. While yes, it would be nice to have my creditors off my back, I have guilty feelings about writing off my debt. I got myself into this mess. To me, I really should try to get myself out of it. Unfortunately I know the debt will take longer to pay off then the seven years a bankruptcy will stay on my record, especially in my current employment situation. I guess this is something I will REALLY need to think through.
Despite the fact that I myself went to a therapist today, I have been giving a lot of thought to what I would like to do with my life. And I've realized that I love helping, or rather attempting to help people. An ad keeps coming up on Facebook for a degree to become a Christian therapists, and I clicked on it today just to see what it's about. I'm not going to deny that the thought of going back to school and accruing even more debt scares the shit out of me, but I really don't think that design is my calling. I REALLY want to help people. But perhaps I should sit/sleep on this thought for a while... At least a few months if not a year. Thing 2 will be in Kindergarten in the fall, and life may or may not become simpler then.
DAY 65, Post 3
Today is... Bittersweet. I should be celebrating. DH and I reached a settlement and the divorce will be final as soon as the paperwork is filed. But I feel so alone.
CL-WoW and I had plans to celebrate D-Day. And he has nothing to celebrate in his own life, but I'm selfish and all I want is him... Here. I want to wrap him up in a huge hug that feels like it lasts forever. I want to take away his stresses and worries for as long as I can. And I can't.
I hate not having control. I hate not being able to make him smile. I hate not being able make him happy. And I hate to hate.
CL-WoW and I had plans to celebrate D-Day. And he has nothing to celebrate in his own life, but I'm selfish and all I want is him... Here. I want to wrap him up in a huge hug that feels like it lasts forever. I want to take away his stresses and worries for as long as I can. And I can't.
I hate not having control. I hate not being able to make him smile. I hate not being able make him happy. And I hate to hate.
Thursday, March 24, 2011
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
DAY 52, Post 4
I'm not feeling great right now. After I went shopping I got stuck in a thunderstorm/hail storm, and sat in my car knitting and listening to music for a bit. I'm changing tomorrow's Song of the Day, so you can listen to the song then, but the lyrics are here... I hadn't read them before, or really listened to them, and I honestly thought they were more... Religious... When I added them to the playlist I put them on.
But this song, now that I've listened to it a few too many times this afternoon, is exactly how I feel. And I just want to cry, but I want to cry due to a smile, not due to feeling down.
Your Guardian Angel by The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
When I see your smile
The tears run down my face
I can't replace
And now that I'm stronger I've figured out
How this world turns cold
And breaks through my soul
And I know, I'll find deep inside me
I can be the one
I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to Heaven
It's okay, it's okay, it's okay
Seasons are changing and waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you, I'll be the one
I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to Heaven
'Cause you're my, you're my, my
My true love, my whole heart
Please don't throw that away
'Cause I'm here for you
Please don't walk away
And please tell me, you'll stay, stay
Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know, I'll be okay
Though my skies are turning gray
I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to Heaven
I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to Heaven
I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
But this song, now that I've listened to it a few too many times this afternoon, is exactly how I feel. And I just want to cry, but I want to cry due to a smile, not due to feeling down.
Your Guardian Angel by The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
When I see your smile
The tears run down my face
I can't replace
And now that I'm stronger I've figured out
How this world turns cold
And breaks through my soul
And I know, I'll find deep inside me
I can be the one
I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to Heaven
It's okay, it's okay, it's okay
Seasons are changing and waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you, I'll be the one
I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to Heaven
'Cause you're my, you're my, my
My true love, my whole heart
Please don't throw that away
'Cause I'm here for you
Please don't walk away
And please tell me, you'll stay, stay
Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know, I'll be okay
Though my skies are turning gray
I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to Heaven
I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to Heaven
I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
Thursday, March 17, 2011
DAY 46, Post 2
I'm sitting at work, waiting for someone else to be ready to leave (we're not supposed to walk out alone when we work the closing shift) and I'm looking at my legs in my new jeans...
And damn... They look good!
And damn... They look good!
Tuesday, March 1, 2011
DAY 30, Post 2
Yea, another 2am post. I fell asleep with Thing 2 in his bed last night and woke up 15 minutes ago feeling incredibly selfish. Why? Because I want to spend time with somebody on my birthday. And I know he has stuff he wants/needs to be focusing on and it's not me... Right now.
I don't know that it WILL ever be me again. And I feel like a hypocrite. I have that "Focus on what you NEED! Not what you want..." sign on my monitor and I'm not allowing him to do that. I want to be there for him, but... I don't want to make him angry by asking for time away from what he NEEDS to be focusing on. Even if I'm only trying to do it as a friend.
His birthday is coming up too. March 19. Another Pisces. I'd LOVE to celebrate that day with him. Start year #31 off right and with a smile and laughter. Way back when I had taken the day off work. I never gave it back. But that's HIS day, and I hope he finds everything he's looking for on it. And I hope "K" is still in town to celebrate it with him. (That's all I will say about "K.")
I won't deny that I have ideas about a birthday Cross County Care Package. However seeing as I woke up to my internet not working, possibly because I haven't paid the bill, it's hard to justify spending a penny on someone besides the boys and I. BUT, I'm a giving person. And even if I don't do the package, or don't do it in the way I would have liked, the thought it there. And it's the thought that counts, right? Or so society has taught us...
The thought IS there... Constantly.
I don't know that it WILL ever be me again. And I feel like a hypocrite. I have that "Focus on what you NEED! Not what you want..." sign on my monitor and I'm not allowing him to do that. I want to be there for him, but... I don't want to make him angry by asking for time away from what he NEEDS to be focusing on. Even if I'm only trying to do it as a friend.
His birthday is coming up too. March 19. Another Pisces. I'd LOVE to celebrate that day with him. Start year #31 off right and with a smile and laughter. Way back when I had taken the day off work. I never gave it back. But that's HIS day, and I hope he finds everything he's looking for on it. And I hope "K" is still in town to celebrate it with him. (That's all I will say about "K.")
I won't deny that I have ideas about a birthday Cross County Care Package. However seeing as I woke up to my internet not working, possibly because I haven't paid the bill, it's hard to justify spending a penny on someone besides the boys and I. BUT, I'm a giving person. And even if I don't do the package, or don't do it in the way I would have liked, the thought it there. And it's the thought that counts, right? Or so society has taught us...
The thought IS there... Constantly.
Thursday, February 24, 2011
DAY 25, Post 4
Soooo... My "Soul Mate Spec Sheet" in its revised form... (*are new)
1. Calls or texts within a day of first date
2. Doesn't mind and actually likes PDA
3. Sleeps on left side of bed
4. Knows how to and enjoys cooking
5. Sends texts/pictures during the day if/when thinking about me
6. At least 3 inches taller than me
7. At least 20 pounds heavier than me
8. In good shape
9. Smells good (Axe is a plus)
10. Likes kids
11. Likes video games*
12. Likes hockey
13. Likes to camp
14. Does not hunt
15. Great sense of humor
16. Reads books and/or magazines
17. Dark hair
18. Likes board games
19. Plays WoW*
20. Likes animals
21. Likes to stare at the stars
22. Likes to build things/work with hands
23. Looks at the glass as at least 1/2 full
24. Will eat cereal for dinner
25. Will take chances
26. Is spontaneous
27. Is NOT a couch potato
28. Loves to travel
29. Opens doors for me
30. Mixes CDs for me (or makes playlists on my iPOD for me)
31. Interested in architecture
32. Interested in restoring/renovating houses/buildings
33. Within 5 years of my age
34. Has a library card
35. Knows how to do laundry
36. Would dress up for Halloween
37. Has 3-5 (minimum) good local friends
38. Will paint my toenails
39. Voted for Obama
40. Hums or whistles
41. Will buy tampons/feminine products at the store
42. Has never been in jail
43. Is close to his family*
44. Likes ethnic food (Indian/Thai/Greek)
45. Doesn't mind if food touches*
46. Likes garbage plates*
47. Likes Sushi
48. Owns a swimsuit and likes to swim
49. Buys me tulips, even if they are out of season
50. Makes an effort to meet/know my friends
51. Likes my family and they like him*
52. Initiates activities with my boys
53. Stops by my office/work to say hi if in the area
54. Pays attention to positive details
55. Rubs my head/strokes my hair
56. Gives awesome massages
57. Awesome in bed* (hey, this is my list)
58. Loves to cuddle*
59. Takes out the garbage*
60. Hugging him is like dancing, even if we're standing still*
61. Says hello and goodbye with a kiss, hug and a smile*
62. Introduces me to local friends/family voluntarily within first two months*
63. Understands that money doesn't mean crap to me and isn't embarrassed by his place/status in life*
64. Is willing/able to communicate openly with me about past, present and future*
65. Doesn't mind and enjoys if I surprise him at work with a coffee or for break/lunch*
66. Gives as much as he receives*
67. Must have a verbal filter* (Added 03-03-2011)
1. Calls or texts within a day of first date
2. Doesn't mind and actually likes PDA
3. Sleeps on left side of bed
4. Knows how to and enjoys cooking
5. Sends texts/pictures during the day if/when thinking about me
6. At least 3 inches taller than me
7. At least 20 pounds heavier than me
8. In good shape
9. Smells good (Axe is a plus)
10. Likes kids
11. Likes video games*
12. Likes hockey
13. Likes to camp
14. Does not hunt
15. Great sense of humor
16. Reads books and/or magazines
17. Dark hair
18. Likes board games
19. Plays WoW*
20. Likes animals
21. Likes to stare at the stars
22. Likes to build things/work with hands
23. Looks at the glass as at least 1/2 full
24. Will eat cereal for dinner
25. Will take chances
26. Is spontaneous
27. Is NOT a couch potato
28. Loves to travel
29. Opens doors for me
30. Mixes CDs for me (or makes playlists on my iPOD for me)
31. Interested in architecture
32. Interested in restoring/renovating houses/buildings
33. Within 5 years of my age
34. Has a library card
35. Knows how to do laundry
36. Would dress up for Halloween
37. Has 3-5 (minimum) good local friends
38. Will paint my toenails
39. Voted for Obama
40. Hums or whistles
41. Will buy tampons/feminine products at the store
42. Has never been in jail
43. Is close to his family*
44. Likes ethnic food (Indian/Thai/Greek)
45. Doesn't mind if food touches*
46. Likes garbage plates*
47. Likes Sushi
48. Owns a swimsuit and likes to swim
49. Buys me tulips, even if they are out of season
50. Makes an effort to meet/know my friends
51. Likes my family and they like him*
52. Initiates activities with my boys
53. Stops by my office/work to say hi if in the area
54. Pays attention to positive details
55. Rubs my head/strokes my hair
56. Gives awesome massages
57. Awesome in bed* (hey, this is my list)
58. Loves to cuddle*
59. Takes out the garbage*
60. Hugging him is like dancing, even if we're standing still*
61. Says hello and goodbye with a kiss, hug and a smile*
62. Introduces me to local friends/family voluntarily within first two months*
63. Understands that money doesn't mean crap to me and isn't embarrassed by his place/status in life*
64. Is willing/able to communicate openly with me about past, present and future*
65. Doesn't mind and enjoys if I surprise him at work with a coffee or for break/lunch*
66. Gives as much as he receives*
67. Must have a verbal filter* (Added 03-03-2011)
Tuesday, February 22, 2011
DAY 23, Post 5
Moving on...
I decided to make a list of things I'm looking forward to, even if they aren't in the cards for the near future...
I decided to make a list of things I'm looking forward to, even if they aren't in the cards for the near future...
- April 14, 2011 and D-Day
- Painting my apartment
- Building my dream house... someday
- Finding true love
- Hearing "I Love You" from someone besides my family or my boys
- Getting a job I LOVE
- Paying off my bills and not having to worry about money
- Traveling
- Visiting my family in New York
- Driving cross country
- Going to Europe
- Being totally happy
- Never having to let go
- Summer
- Having an organized, furnished apartment
- Painting
- Passionate, deep kisses
- Hugs that don't end and feel like dancing
- Eternal smiles
- Public Displays of Affection
- Finishing my blanket
- Forgiving the past
- Reading the entire Bible
- Cleaning out my DVR
DAY 23, Post 4
Deep sigh. My apology was heard. The photos are off my computer. I wish much happiness for us both (individually) in the future and hope that if we cross paths we can do it with a smile.
I've never walked away from ANY relationship not knowing if I would speak with the person ever again. I think that's what hurts the most. But if nothing else, he's shown me how I should be treated by my significant other, and hopefully the same was true, in a positive light.
Thank you for the memories... I'll never forget you, however... I'll go forward with fond memories and the hope we can/have forgiven each other for any hurt that was caused.
I've never walked away from ANY relationship not knowing if I would speak with the person ever again. I think that's what hurts the most. But if nothing else, he's shown me how I should be treated by my significant other, and hopefully the same was true, in a positive light.
Thank you for the memories... I'll never forget you, however... I'll go forward with fond memories and the hope we can/have forgiven each other for any hurt that was caused.
The BEST New Years Eve in My First 31 Years...
And a GREAT smile...
Whoever she is, make sure she'll drive 30 minutes to take you coffee on your 10 minute break.
DAY 23, Post 2
OK ladies out there... If you're having a bad day/week/month/year whatever, set your DVR to record The Talk. It's the best decision I ever made. Here I am, up at 12:30am and watching yesterday's episode of The Talk and laughing my ass off. Ahhh, laughing feels soooo good!
The ladies have selected presidents that they considered to be hot and Leah (from King of Queens)... Or was it Sarah?... selected Woodrow Wilson. Sharon Osbourne retorted that she thought he should be in a bathroom with George Michael. But then Sharon selected a president because he had a size 14 shoe... Because size matters. HA!
Thanks to CT and his savvy computer skills I cleaned out my iPOD this weekend and deleted several playlists that really didn't need to be on there anymore. (My iPOD refused to sync with my computer before his savviness.) So now I've made a "Moving On" playlist and could really use recommendations. Anyone?
On my Blackberry I've now downloaded a Daily Horoscope app and so far I'm very pleased! The only thing I wish was different was that I wish I could copy the text (so I could paste the really inspiring ones here) but with the format it's not possible.
Some days are definitely better than others and today (or should I still consider it yesterday) is by far one of the best I've had in quite a while.
Thank you again and again to all of you who are always there for me. I love you all!
XOXO,
Me
The ladies have selected presidents that they considered to be hot and Leah (from King of Queens)... Or was it Sarah?... selected Woodrow Wilson. Sharon Osbourne retorted that she thought he should be in a bathroom with George Michael. But then Sharon selected a president because he had a size 14 shoe... Because size matters. HA!
Thanks to CT and his savvy computer skills I cleaned out my iPOD this weekend and deleted several playlists that really didn't need to be on there anymore. (My iPOD refused to sync with my computer before his savviness.) So now I've made a "Moving On" playlist and could really use recommendations. Anyone?
On my Blackberry I've now downloaded a Daily Horoscope app and so far I'm very pleased! The only thing I wish was different was that I wish I could copy the text (so I could paste the really inspiring ones here) but with the format it's not possible.
Some days are definitely better than others and today (or should I still consider it yesterday) is by far one of the best I've had in quite a while.
Thank you again and again to all of you who are always there for me. I love you all!
XOXO,
Me
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
DAY 17, Part 2
I can't deny, I'm in a pissy mood this morning. I think ill have to look up the different stages of grief when I get home this afternoon because I'm obviously now in the anger stage. I'm in no mood to go into work and make salsas and smile, and that sucks. I'm just pissed off.
Yesterday before my posts I resent a text asking if he would have coffee with me this evening. We had exchanged short texts on Monday and yes, I am still looking for that final, in-person conversation. Why is that so hard to get? Does he have feelings for me that he's afraid will show if he sees me?
Ahhh! REALLY not in the mood to work. Its just good that I deleted his number and all texts from my phone last night, because I've got words.
Yesterday before my posts I resent a text asking if he would have coffee with me this evening. We had exchanged short texts on Monday and yes, I am still looking for that final, in-person conversation. Why is that so hard to get? Does he have feelings for me that he's afraid will show if he sees me?
Ahhh! REALLY not in the mood to work. Its just good that I deleted his number and all texts from my phone last night, because I've got words.
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
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