Now I'm 95% sure about what I saw earlier. And instead of being angry, I'm just sad.
Revelations like this make me wonder why would God do this? I know He tests us in so many ways, but why would He make us so happy just to take us to a point of unhappiness and heartbreak that was never known before? I can't imagine the lesson that I am supposed to learn in this.
I put myself out on the line again, and I'm realizing I'm just being foolish. An idiot is a person who keeps doing the same things over and over expecting a different result. While I would like to think the idiot is NOT me, perhaps it is. And it sucks. Sucks that I would put myself out there repeatedly and only get an ounce of respect in return, at the most.
While some would say they would rather not hurt somebody and therefore not respond, I think that's chickenish and even more hurtful. And I doubt that person can be honest with him/herself if they can't be honest with others. And I don't want to be a digger, but dammit... Be honest already! What are you going to gain in the world if you can't be? Only more hurt for you AND other people!
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