I'm caught in the loop of not giving up again... And not being able to let go... Persistance really does suck sometimes.
Mom asked me tonight why I can't let go, and I couldn't come up with an answer. Period. I just can't. Something is continuing to pull me in that direction, and while I try to distract myself, sometimes it just doesn't work.
I go to bed each night praying to God to show me the path I'm supposed to take, and each night I have dreams about him. I'm starting to resent sleep, because they show me false illusions... A non-reality that I would accept in a second if I could have it. But... I can't? (Question mark intentional)
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