DAY 99, Post 1

It's been another amazing week.  Yesterday was Mother's Day and I do not hesitate to say it was the BEST Mother's Day I have celebrated.  It was DH's weekend to have the boys (although I had them from 11am - 7pm yesterday) and...  I got to sleep in!  At about 10am I was woken up by Dave with kisses and an invitation to the kitchen for breakfast.  And what a breakfast it was!  He had made me a HUMONGOUS omelet with shrimp scampi, onions, salsa, mushrooms (?) and lots of other deliciousness and I got to enjoy Breakfast with the Beatles with him. 

After we picked up the boys we went to church, and then home where the boys were blown away to see that Dave's TV has made it's way to Troy...  And the Wii and old TV are now set up in Jacob's room.  Dave has been VERY helpful in implementing discipline in the house, and not in a harsh manner.  Actually, his method of discipline is all about earning respect and rights by giving respect and contributing to the house.  So, the although the Wii and TV are now in Jacob's room, the remotes for all of the above are in our show organizer in the front hallway, out of reach in the top row of shoe holders.  The boys are now aware that in order to play/watch ANYTHING, they must have done all their chores and have been respectful all day.  There are no second chances on being respectful.

Later yesterday afternoon the four of us went to Brukner Nature Center.  We walked the path(s) for a while, but because of all the rain, we suddenly found ourselves without a path and surrounded by mud and water.  While at first we tried to stay dry and clean, it didn't work for two long.  I will add pictures to this post later tonight.  We almost had a pet snake, however (and thankfully) the thing escaped from Dave's pocket somewhere along the walk.  I can't say I'm disappointed, although I know the boys were.

When we got home I attempted to wash/dry all of our sneakers however I managed to break the dryer in the process.  Dave's been working on fixing it today (the belt came off the drum) and I'll be helping finish it up when I get home tonight.  (I'm very excited, as I (1) LOVE doing this type of thing and (2) know it's not an activity Dave would normally let me help with...  Especially considering he did my nails last night, haha.)

Pictures and more will come tonight...

DAY 65, Post 2

Well, today could be the day!  And although I'm overwhelmingly excited about that possibility, I'm starting to feel very nervous.  Honestly, I don't know what to do with myself.

I've written my list of wants, which I will give to my attorney as a reminder when I get there.  And I hope that what I can get is somewhere close.  The most important thing on the list, is something I really can't ask for, but I would like for him to not harass me anymore.  It's becoming an ongoing issue, especially when he attends every single sporting event/practice for the boys, including on the days/weekends when I have the boys.  I should note, however, that not only does he attend, but he sits right next to me.  OK, not right next to me, but only leaving space for the kids between us.  And he watches my every move.

I started my own personal counseling this morning.  It was very personal, however I'm hoping to get a lot out of it.  So far my therapist seems very communicative, which is definitely better than a couple of my past therapists.  The type that just sits there and doesn't say a word doesn't do anything for me.  I need to be pushed.  I need to be challenged.  And I hope to get this from her.

I weighed myself on the Wii balance board yesterday.  It had me at 141 pounds.  Yikes.  Or Yay?  I don't really know what to think.  The funny thing is, the Wii said my ideal weight is 140 pounds.  I haven't weighed 140 (or 141) pounds since I graduated college.  And while I think I look great, I'm growing frustrated with having to buy new clothes.  My favorite bra doesn't even fit anymore.  Who would've known that boobs would shrink?

DAY 11

Ha ha ha ha.  I can't think of any other emotion to describe how I feel about something I did last night...

I had a bad morning, but thanks to friends I was able to get back into better spirits and went to work feeling good.  I had to close last night (a highlight of my day, especially cleaning the drains in the men's and women's rooms) but was lucky enough to be able to hang out with a friend after getting home...

And this is what I did...

Did it give me the answers I was looking for?  No.  Did it give me the ability to move on entirely without thinking about him?  No.  But damn, it felt GOOD!  The sweater is still safe, and I'm thinking about finishing it, if even for myself and then it would be backless, but I'll just think of it as a "Snuggie" knitted sweater blanket.  Complete with sleeves and a hood.

I just got off work and home from a long shift today...  10am - 5pm.  Being in there at 10am is hard after leaving at 11:30 the night before.  I think I got two hours of sleep last night.  The boys are thankfully being great tonight, playing with Penny and on the Wii.  I think I'll relax for a little bit before figuring out what to do with the rest of my night.

DAY SIX

I'm so glad I decided to take the weekends off when I have the boys.  Today has been a lovely day, even though we've been at home, playing WoW or Smash Brothers on the Wii.  The apartment is clean, due to an impromptu cleaning session this evening, and Thing 1 even helped vacuum.

I've been working on my blanket and I'll be finishing the third block tonight.  But here are the first two...

So...  Three blocks down, only a hundred or so to go...