This tangled mess of yarn made me think about my life, and the big, complicated knots I knit for myself sometimes. Although not on purpose, I seem to get myself, physically and emotionally, into situations I can't get out of, at all or very easily.
It took me an hour, and a lot of patience, to sit there and figure out where the ends of every skein were supposed to go. I had six skeins of yarn to figure out. Thinking about it now, I remember that one of my grandmothers used to give me a dollar to untangle her (fake) pearls when I was a little girl. For some reason, I was the only one of the granddaughters with enough patience to sit there and figure it out for her. Somewhere along the last 25+ years, I've lost that patience and developed the need to fix everything RIGHT NOW. I need to slow down again. Let things happen in their own time.
After I untangled the web, I was able to finish knitting the fourth block of my blanket...
I made a mistake on it when I was knitting, but like life, which is full of mistakes which cannot be undone, I decided to leave it. And while it may not be apparent to other people's unknowing eyes, I'll know it's there. But the mistake will build character in my blanket, make it mine, just like the mistakes in my life make it truly mine as well.
Nobody gives us a script to run our lives. And while I have a pattern to follow to make my blanket, it's still mine. Mistakes will happen. And I've decided to make the blanket bigger to fit my bed. So I'll take that and implement it into my life. I'm taking the script that wasn't given to me, and I'm going to make my life bigger. And yes, mistakes will happen, but they'll happen for a reason. And I'll smile, learn from them, and continue to make my life... Truly MINE.
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