More nights than not I can be found on my side of the couch, with Penny (the dog) in my lap, knitting. Dave will be on the other side of the couch, his PS3 controller in his hands, playing the game of the moment. Right now it's Skyrim. We'll both have our legs stretched out down the couch, intertwined with each other, and we'll both look up occasionally to find the other one staring at us. It's not a bad stare. It's a fascinating, "I love that person, no matter what s/he is doing" stare. Now that the wedding dress is getting longer, Dave has been picking it up, feeling it, and rubbing his face on it because it smells like me. I think it's sweet. Last night, however, he said something that really struck me. He said, "You know, you have touched EVERY inch of this dress."
Yea, I have.
While I'm not saying that a store-bought wedding dress doesn't mean as much as the one I'm knitting, and I'm not saying that I'm not going to buy one for the big wedding/reception next year, however I AM just really (don't know what word I want) that I have touched every 1/4 inch of this dress! It makes it SO personal!
I can't say that I have touched as much of any other aspect of my life as I have my dress. I've been reviewing my finances on a nearly-daily basis since last May, however I can't say I'm touching every piece of my finances when I can't afford to pay all my bills. And by discussing my dress, I realize I need to be just as involved in my boys' lives as I am in the construction of this dress. Am I a good mom (in my opinion)? Yes, I believe I'm a GREAT mom. However there are always ways a parent can improve. And I'm going to find them. And the same goes for being a mate for Dave.
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Later... I need a nap. And I need to be at home. The work week needs to end... Fast...
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