I only have a few minutes before I need to get ready for work. Today I work 8-4. I clearly upset my General Manager yesterday when he saw the note that I had updated my availability for work. He came to ask me about not being able to work on Sundays, and I stated to him that the church has asked me to help out. While I haven't written about it on here before, the church has contacted me to assist in the Children's Ministry, particularly in the childcare rooms during services. I would be honored. But I can't (personally)commit unless I know that I will not have to work on Sundays. It would be unfair for them to count on me unless I can commit to not working on Sundays. And seeing as I had been thinking about it for some time anyway, I think it's the right thing to do. As Christians we aren't supposed to work on Sundays anyway, so what better way to "work" then to help out at my church?
I've spent the last hour scouring the internet for jobs and luckily found a couple to apply for. While for the most part I like the people I work with at my job, the pay and hours really aren't working for me. And having a four year degree, I am really concerned that I will get trapped in the minimum-wage restaurant track if I don't make a change soon. I'm grateful that I've made it the three months I have there so far though. Seriously, the job is MUCH more intense than I ever expected.
While looking for a new job, I've also been giving a lot of thought to going back to college. I'm debating between education and therapy/counseling as far as majors go, and I will continue to think about it, probably until the fall. Both of my moms went back to school later in life, and both went back after the age of 32, so I can wait a bit longer until I figure out if this is my calling. The thought of taking out more student loans continues to be troubling to me, but pursuing a career in interior design/architecture is proving to be difficult, especially due to the geographic constraints imposed by the divorce. And there is no way I will move out of the area and lose time with my boys. NO way.
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Sunday, April 10, 2011
Saturday, April 2, 2011
DAY 62, Post 2
Last night I decided to tackle this big yarn mess that Penny made...
This tangled mess of yarn made me think about my life, and the big, complicated knots I knit for myself sometimes. Although not on purpose, I seem to get myself, physically and emotionally, into situations I can't get out of, at all or very easily.
It took me an hour, and a lot of patience, to sit there and figure out where the ends of every skein were supposed to go. I had six skeins of yarn to figure out. Thinking about it now, I remember that one of my grandmothers used to give me a dollar to untangle her (fake) pearls when I was a little girl. For some reason, I was the only one of the granddaughters with enough patience to sit there and figure it out for her. Somewhere along the last 25+ years, I've lost that patience and developed the need to fix everything RIGHT NOW. I need to slow down again. Let things happen in their own time.
After I untangled the web, I was able to finish knitting the fourth block of my blanket...
I made a mistake on it when I was knitting, but like life, which is full of mistakes which cannot be undone, I decided to leave it. And while it may not be apparent to other people's unknowing eyes, I'll know it's there. But the mistake will build character in my blanket, make it mine, just like the mistakes in my life make it truly mine as well.
Nobody gives us a script to run our lives. And while I have a pattern to follow to make my blanket, it's still mine. Mistakes will happen. And I've decided to make the blanket bigger to fit my bed. So I'll take that and implement it into my life. I'm taking the script that wasn't given to me, and I'm going to make my life bigger. And yes, mistakes will happen, but they'll happen for a reason. And I'll smile, learn from them, and continue to make my life... Truly MINE.
This tangled mess of yarn made me think about my life, and the big, complicated knots I knit for myself sometimes. Although not on purpose, I seem to get myself, physically and emotionally, into situations I can't get out of, at all or very easily.
It took me an hour, and a lot of patience, to sit there and figure out where the ends of every skein were supposed to go. I had six skeins of yarn to figure out. Thinking about it now, I remember that one of my grandmothers used to give me a dollar to untangle her (fake) pearls when I was a little girl. For some reason, I was the only one of the granddaughters with enough patience to sit there and figure it out for her. Somewhere along the last 25+ years, I've lost that patience and developed the need to fix everything RIGHT NOW. I need to slow down again. Let things happen in their own time.
After I untangled the web, I was able to finish knitting the fourth block of my blanket...
I made a mistake on it when I was knitting, but like life, which is full of mistakes which cannot be undone, I decided to leave it. And while it may not be apparent to other people's unknowing eyes, I'll know it's there. But the mistake will build character in my blanket, make it mine, just like the mistakes in my life make it truly mine as well.
Nobody gives us a script to run our lives. And while I have a pattern to follow to make my blanket, it's still mine. Mistakes will happen. And I've decided to make the blanket bigger to fit my bed. So I'll take that and implement it into my life. I'm taking the script that wasn't given to me, and I'm going to make my life bigger. And yes, mistakes will happen, but they'll happen for a reason. And I'll smile, learn from them, and continue to make my life... Truly MINE.
Wednesday, February 23, 2011
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